Issue

Deep inside. I want the old us so badly.
But I want to let go
Insecurities
Memories
Love.
Im just tired
No matter how hard I tried.
I can feel her existence.
Between us.
Some parts of me will always love you.
For the rest of my life.

Im sorry,
My first love,
AI.
I've loved you. More than you know...

Thank you

Thank you.

For hurting me again.

Like a thousand times...

haish

this is killing me. softly.

Being forgotten

The day we first broke up
I didn’t know what a goodbye was
Only after a few days have passed
Not getting a call from you felt so awkward
The empty text message inbox, a day without you

I guess it’s really over now
It finally feels real
Everything that we used to love is now being erased
The times when we were always together
The days I was happy by looking at you

Were we ever in love?
The images of you in the many places
At some point are being forgotten
The fact that you’ll be even more forgotten as time goes by
That hurts even more, it just doesn’t feel good

As I was organizing things one by one
I suddenly thought of this
There were so many things I am sorry for
I wasn’t good enough so I couldn’t express myself
I know you were disappointed with me back then

On a day when it really hurts a lot
I really missed you
I was so innocent
I hated you so much

Your silly talk
Your presence that was so warm
All the things that I miss are being forgotten
That is what hurts

So I hoped you would suffer too
I hoped you will hurt without me too.

.

You left me broken,

Im trying to fix my broken wings

And

When the time come,

I will fly higher than you.

Just wait

complicated

It seems like I dont know you anymore.

And 

We keep following the path, the cycle. 

as I expected

I dont know what to do

lead me,

You lost me

I am done, smoking gun
We've lost it all, the love is gone
She has won, now it's no fun
We've lost it all, the love is gone

And we had magic
And this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me

And we tried, oh how we cried
We lost ourselves, the love has died
And though we tried you can't deny
We're left as shells, we lost the fight

And we had magic
And this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me

Now I know you're sorry and we were sweet
But you chose lust when you deceived me
And you'll regret it, but it's too late
How can I ever trust you again?

I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me

noktah

Reach the ending. between us

Date

31st  October 2014.  

:)

Kotak

okay, tajuk tak kena dengan topik. yaa yaaaa whatevahh~~
Hey, guess what? I haven't start my assignment yet. Submission? daaa boleh pegi meninggal. Lately, my spirit seems to be flew away. detoriated. Reasons? idk. maybe im not happy with my life. At all. bukan aku tak bersyukur ke apa. Just like im a marionette that moving with an unwilling heart. 2 years to go weh! pray for me that i can complete my degree within this 2 years in a normal state. Takda cacat cela putus fius mana. hmmmmmm. Last week was like the happiest moment evah where i can laugh freely without any faking moment. jerantut moments. But truthfully, it's hurt cuz i know that my happiness it just for a moment. a blink of eye. they gone. harsh reality is calling me back to ipsah, make me living in a fakeness and all is well is my always. but for sure im not. ,my life have been turning upside down. Im dying here. Hambik kau post negativity tahap petala. It just that I can't hold it anymore and will explode anytime. *sigh*  And what's make u like what aaa shejbfwlej/gve when someone just told u, sokay, just foget blaa blaaa. PERGI MENINGGAL OKAY. They dont understand. They would'nt. Just imagine that, life is like a book, you enter the story in the middle part, and you dont know how the story started, and how it will be end. You just enter and feeling nothing. Blur kau tahu tak. Okeee done with meroyan part. byee

almost lover

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind, images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes, clever trick

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me images
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never ever forget these images, no

Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind

So now you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk
Right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Why can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

new start, new life, new leaf semua baru lahh.

heyy, i know no one will read this. blogging era seems to be the end of it. HAHAHA,,
As you know, i have been transferred to IPSAH *well i think most of you know the reason why* *malas nak taip* in SP. so dekat dengan rumahlah. less than one hour. My life there? it was like emmmm okaylaaa. still plain. in the process of adapting, catching up the rhyme, everything was difficult at first. well i hope that ease will come after that. Still trying to collect that little faith. Truthfully, i miss all my KIC's family. well especially my gegaloks. things are different here without them. Now I realised that im playing the part as the overly attach friend. sometimes, I do cry every single night. cuz i've been missing them like crazyy. Everything I see and hear will remind me of them. Tudia the power of friendship. well i dont know if they also feel the same towards mee. naaaaah i dont caree.

Revenge

They said the greatest revenge among all is
BE HAPPY, and embrace yourself.
heyy, now im glad that i feel this way. i hope u will feel the same,

heart

Sayangku akan hilang

pissed again

And girl, you really pissed me off.
HARD.
Thanks.

Garisan

Kau jangan risau, aku tanya tak lebih dari seorang kawan..

Lame then So?

Aku rasa penggunaan tatabahasa aku makin menyedihkan.
Hye blog? Dah bersawang anda nampaknya.
Ada orang cakap anda lame.
Then so what?
Aku memang suka taip dan cakap sensorg.

Lantak

kadang-kadang lirik lagu menggambarkan apa yang aku tengah rasa.

Mungkin bukan luahan straight to the point dari aku,

Tapi, kau akan faham kalau kau nak atau dah kenal aku luar dalam.

Dan,

Aku tak pernah harap kau faham.

Mungkin aku nak kau tahu saja.

Do they know?

They said im changing.
Well, that's true.
Maybe they seem to know,
Rather than sympathize,
They should understand
The ultimate reason.
Hey you, thanks for this change.....

Last time, my heart skipped a beat.
Could it be...